—used to be summer—
excluded the
colour of my skin, back then
summer was
bleached blonde, white flesh
summer was beer
and low-slung cars
summer was
Camaro and two-seater, hot tunes and streaming hair
summer was
Crescent Beach, and Crescent Beach was a thing—
Kim’s yellow polka dot bikini, my
parched throat, brown face,
skinny body—my summer stuck out—
my summer was
headache and glare,
no Ray-Bans,
squinting past fear looking over my shoulder, unsure—
summer hissed at me, where you from,
not around here—
and
my summer stayed silent, downcast, not fitting in.
All my memories cascading dry as dust,
sand
tossed, seagull chased, running
away—summer, you mean girl, always
laughing and me, each breath
just
trying to get through the blaze of days
unfinished,
close to the ocean, unwanted
waves, banana scented, coconut
flavoured, pina colada, raucous and salty—
summer,
used to be I tried to be a part of you:
summer, now everyone pretty much hates
the way you’ve become:
scorched
kisses, your heat dome suffocates, no tan marks, smoke billows
and I can watch from the sidelines,
shade hunter, no longer alone.

Renée Sarojini
Saklikar is the author of five books, including the award-winning Children of
Air India and Listening to the Bees. Her poetry, essays and short
fiction have appeared in many literary magazines and anthologies, including
Exile Editions, Chatelaine, The Capilano Review, and Pulp
Literature. Bramah’s Quest is the latest volume of her epic fantasy
in verse, THOT J BAP, The Heart of This Journey Bears All Patterns. She
was poet laureate for the City of Surrey 2015–2018 and volunteers for Event
magazine, Meet the Presses collective, Surrey International Writers
Conference and Poetry in Canada. Renée Sarojini teaches creative writing and
editing at Kwantlen Polytechnic University and hosts Lunch Poems at SFU. Find
out more https://thecanadaproject.wordpress.com/